So as you all read about last night, after I closed my blog down I went into the bedroom. The boyfriend asked "where are you going?" I told him to go to bed, he asked "why?" and I simply stated because he didn't want to hang out, I was tired and wanted to sleep. He was like "put the dog in the kennel" I got upset and said you can't place a dog in the kennel when you're clearly out here playing your video games. I then said nevermind I'll take him in the room with me. He said no because he didn't want him pissing on the floor. So he "watched him".
Later on he came into the room and turned on the lights, I was chatting with a friend through messenger while I was crying because I was just so upset. A long time ago I used to get this feeling that it was just me, that no one cared about me and I was all alone. A lot of my relationships whether it be friends or boyfriends made me feel that way. It had been so long since I felt that, that feeling came back last night and it hurt. I remember not wanting to ever feel that again and there I was laying in bed crying and feeling it. So after he came in turning on the lights and checking his phone he asked me "why am I being so dramatic?" At that point I wasn't crying and he was too self centered to even notice anyways. He then said to me "We'll now you know how I feel every time I want to watch a movie or hang out and you don't." I looked at him and said WOW...so this was a punishment? This was to prove to me that you could hurt me? Real fucking mature. As he walked out of the room he saw piss on the floor. The puppy let me remind you is 10 weeks old. Had pissed on the floor. So he put him in the kennel. I got out of bed, turned off the lights and went back to crying and talking to my best friend back home. Moments later he came back in and said "Can you walk the dog one last time before you go to bed?" I laid there for a bit and once I was ready to I got up and took them out.
I took them to the field to have them play and run around, not realizing it was too cold for the puppy. I felt so bad, but we went back home after and I placed the puppy into his kennel and went back into bed. Later on the boyfriend came in while I was crying and talking to my friend. He finally decided to ask why I was crying. I was too upset to answer and just continued to bawl. Finally I fall asleep.
Currently I'm at work and around 22:00 I get this text message from the boyfriend saying "this fucking dog better be gone by tomorrow. He just bit me, he's un-trainable and if you want to keep him he's 100% your responsibility. I want nothing to do with him. It was a tiny nick in his finger he was over exaggerating. Puppies bite and if he had of listened to me the other night when I said put him down if he bites play time is over. This wouldn't have happened. Of course he couldn't be bothered to listen to me.
So here I am at work going wtf am I suppose to do? I sent a text to the previous owners because I haven't paid them yet asking them to take the puppy back since I'm highly allergic to him. I don't really know what else to say I feel really bad for this but I can't just have a dog live in a kennel because my boyfriend decided he's going to be an asshole. I feel really bad for the puppy he's cute as a button and just needs to be trained. I think this also has to do with his parents saying "Muslims can't have dogs." He expects me to change to do everything and looking at what life would be like with him "forever" isn't what I want. I don't even know why he's dating out of his culture? He says he doesn't like Brown girls because they're too bossy and White girls wouldn't convert to Islam. He may as well let his mother arrange a marriage for him since clearly he's all about making HER happy.
After a couple of hours of course the boyfriend went to bed because he has to be up at 3:00. I sent him a text suggesting him to go stay at his parents house for a few days until I get this dog thing sorted out, because demanding me to get the dog out by tomorrow when 1. I'm working a night shift tonight and again have to work nights tomorrow is unrealistic of him to tell me to get rid of him by tomorrow. I'm really hoping the previous owners take the excuse I'm allergic and take him back. I really don't want to go through the hassle of trying to find poor old Duke a good new home...I'm actually really heart broken about this. I'm more heart broken for the puppy, first he was abandoned and brought to a new home, then he was moved to another so I'm really hoping they take him back. They live on an acreage and it'd be best for them to have him. I guess we'll see.
I'm not even really sure how the boyfriend reacted to going back to his parents message. He'll probably come home tomorrow and act like nothing was said. I'm pissed off he's one of those people that when something is hard he gives up. He's lazy, he doesn't try and I'm starting to realize that he'll never actually accomplish anything because he doesn't want to work hard for it. That's sad but that's not someone I see a future with. Right now I'm so mad at him and the way he made me feel yesterday plus this bullshit I wish I had just went to Vancouver in September when I had planned and for once listened to people when they said "This will never work out."
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